While it's not up to me to exonerate you, I certainly understand! For Fish on First and as a huge fan, I don't see any reason to apologize. This is, admittedly, self-serving, since my own stats were also prodigious. When I am in Louisville, the Reds are blacked out. When in Jacksonville, it's the Marlins. Of course, I watch the local channels for Marlins coverage. So, as my baseball intake is not fully summarized by the MLB.TV recap.
I watch Western time zone games after the Marlins play or catch other Eastern time zone games when the Marlins are out west. Moreover, I must add in my in-person attendance at Great American, loanDepot, Louisville Slugger Field, and Jacksonville Jumbo Shrimp Grounds to round out the picture of baseball immersion. All told, even the few Marlins games I missed were deliberate. Yes, I am a stubborn bas***d, and will not watch the Dodgers under any circumstances, including any games with the Marlins. It's cathartic.
In an alternate universe, I'd be a Rays or Astros fan, two well-run organizations. I always checked in on the Angels, as I have an old connection to them from Expos great Bill Stoneman's GM days. MLB.TV is a fine value for me, enhanced by the MiLB, AFL, and Dominican League availability.
For 2025, presumptuously (since I am old), I have no plans to change and I bet you don't, either!
Cheers.